brian j plachta
Welcome Friends!
writer, spiritual mentor, speaker
by deepening your inner growth, integrating balance & discovering wholeness in your daily life.
to live the life you've imagined
I'm a passionate writer, energetic speaker, & spiritual mentor
---click here to get weekly email encouragements---
who wants to encourage you
How are You Being Invited to Grow?
by brian j plachta on June 3rd, 2018

Sometimes I get angry at God—and I mean angry!  
It happens when I feel I’ve been pulling my weight in my relationship with God—daily meditation, trying to forgive, and loving others as best as I can—you know the drill. But then life collapses on me—a neighbor runs his leaf blower at 8 am on a holiday morning, someone calls me a hypocrite, a loved one gets cancer. 
I have to admit, when I’m trying to be good, and life turns pitch-black, I sometimes turn to God and snarl, “Screw you God!”  That may sound harsh to some folks, but I figure if God and I are in a relationship, then we will have angry moments—at least, I will. And God’s big enough to deal with my frustration and anger.
When I give myself permission to be irritated, I can then take that emotion into the quiet and ask the Creator to help me understand why I’m so angry, what’s underneath it, and how this life-experience invites me to grow.
With God’s wisdom, I realize my notion about him is sometimes wrong. I’m not Geppetto and God’s not Pinocchio—I can’t pull the strings by doing what’s right and expect that he will respond by making my life fairy-tale perfect. 
Instead, he’s the Infinite Being who—regardless of life’s circumstances and people’s choices—is always inviting us to deeper wholeness and balance. It’s our job to become quiet, listen, and try to discover how the Creator is guiding us with love. 
For example, the other day I was feeling good about myself. I know I’m definitely not perfect and have a lifetime of growth ahead of me, but I felt like I was making progress on that old’ self-doubt that seems to wreak havoc on most people’s lives. And then bam! —out of the blue, someone called me a hypocrite. 
The comment hit me like a sucker punch. I tried to let it go, but it wouldn’t let go of me. 
Maybe I ama hypocrite, I thought. Maybe I’m just as phony as those late-night television preachers who proclaim that if you send them twenty dollars, God will shower you with prosperity.
That sucker punch kept hitting me for two days. The old tapes of “you’re a bad person” replayed their haunting echo in my head. And soon, the words “Screw you God!” rolled off my tongue. 
When anger rages in me like that, rather than stuffing it, I’ve learned it’s like a yield sign reminding me to slow down, get honest with myself, and take time to ask God, “How are You inviting me to grow?”
As I sat in the silence with my anger, these whispers from the Creator rose up within me as the rage softened:
Let me—not others—define who you are.Work on being humble, teachable, and patient.You don’t need to be perfect. Just keep loving me, yourself, and others as best as you can.  
Taking my anger to God instead of bottling it up has become much more productive than the old way, when I used to rail at God and others to keep them at bay. It feels like a middle-of-the-road means of dealing with negative emotions. I don’t stuff them, nor do I let them get the best of me. Rather, I receive them as a nudge from God inviting me to dig deeper within myself to seek his wisdom so I can grow. 
I wish life and I were perfect. I wish my neighbor wasn’t OCD with his leaf blower. And I wish I could be like Jesus and walk on water.
But, that’s not the deal. That’s not how we’re wired. Life’s experiences are our teachers. And anger is one professor. If we’re willing to dig deep, partner with God, and let him speak and integrate his wisdom into our lives, anger can have a positive energy. It can propel us to growth.
As we sift and sort through our negative emotions with the Divine Teacher, perhaps a simple question can inspire us to deeper wholeness: “How are You inviting me to grow?”
—-brian j plachta

Posted in not categorized    Tagged with no tags


Leave a Comment

poetry (4)
#God #blessing #contemplation #distractions #faith #father's day #father #fear #growth #i deepen #inner growth #inner peace #interruptions #peace #prayer #rise #spirituality #wholeness Arise Creator Divine God is good God loves me God revealed God with skin God's Blessing God's voice; true voice; experience God's voice God-nudge God Gurdjieff Heart Space Holy spirit I am good I love God Is God Real? Jewish Tradition New Year Now One Onieng Present Moment Quiet the Mind Resolutions Rohr Science Soul of America Soul Time addiction advent alive am I enough? animal spirts antidote awake balance believe belonging beloved bird feeding breath of God breathe breath calming the mind cats centering prayer center charisms choosing our thoughts christmas christ civility common good community connected contemplation conversations with God daily tension desire difficult people discernment divine embrace divine presence divine reading do your best dog doubts dreams drop the stones easter election embodiment embraced embrace enjoy enough eucharist exercise faith fake news false self falsehoods family fear find your voice flip the switch flow theory flow forgiveness forgive freedom gifts gratitude grow up growth grow grumpy guide happiness harmony heart mind connection heart-brake heart hear heaven held hidden holy nudges how much is enough? humanity i okay imagination imperfect incarnation injoy inner grump inner journey inner peace inner strength inner touch inner work innocence inspiration integrity joseph journey joy law of three laying down our life lectio divina lens let god let go life is good life's purpose life-giving life light of the world listen live love live love ourselves love you prayer love me time meaning meditation mentoring mentor metaphors for God mind chatter monkey mind morning mystic nature nudges nudge okay open your heart open ordinary life original blessing original sin peace phoenix plastic jesus poke politics positive practicing presence prayer of the Self prayer pray presecne presence prodigal son purpose quiet time quiet real presence reflection relationship remember resurrection retreat rhythm of life right brain right living running from God running from myself sacrament samuel screwtape scripture seeds self esteem self respect self-giving self-love self-respect self-respec self-talk separation silence simplicity solitude solomon soul's voice speak spiriitual spirit of God spiritual gifts spirituality spiritual spirit strength stroke suffering survivor talents teacher tension the voice of God the voice of the soul this moment transfigure transformation transform true self trust jesus truth unconditional love virtue voice of God voice of love voice walking meditation walking we are the second c coming of Christ what i believe whisper who is your teacher? wholeness why am i here? wisdom keeper wisdom worry wounds